Welcome

Welcome to my new blog! It’s been a long time since I’ve written. Since February, I believe. I think I needed a break from processing my experience of my life with an audience, even if it was just the audience I saw in my head. And, more importantly, I needed to experience it without seeing it all on paper. At times, it just felt like too much. It was overwhelming to think about seeing all of my emotions of re-entry as I returned from Colorado in black and white. I needed to just take it moment by moment until I was on the other side.

Thankfully, I have crossed over and the view is pretty nice. I’ve learned a lot, weathered a lot and grown a lot. I feel like I am ready for a new chapter of my life. One with new hope, new adventures and new discoveries.

My hope is that this new blog will be a clean slate to write about a new season. Trying to write on the old blog is part of kept me from writing, as I found myself having to face the old memories over and over again. I see those things as in the past. Not to be forgotten, but also not to be dwelt in any longer. I have moved on and want my writing to reflect what is already a reality in my life. So, I will not try to fill in the gaps between where I left off and where I am now. I’m just going to start from where I am, attempting to be present and fully here.

I am grateful to say that I am able to accept the past for all of that it was and didn’t turn out to be, without wishing it were different. And, I think all of those difficult, messy months are what carried me to this place. Which isn’t to say I know why it all happened – the sickness, the broken engagement, the move(s). But, what I know for sure is that I wouldn’t want to go back and be the person I was before all of that.

Whatever the future holds, I know I will need ever single lesson and every inch of growth to meet it. I’m excited that you’re coming along for this leg of the journey. I think it’s going to be a good one.